Never Say That You WIll Love Me Forever

What does my title actually meant?

Well, i'll say a short story about it.. I was once loving someone alot as he was my so called `first love'. I treasure him so much and I obeyed him, appreciate him and all the craps la. I never thought that we would ended up so fast. I was actually trying to reach about a year and it lasted for like 3 months?!?! As times goes by, I get to know him better. As I get to know him better.. I know how to treasure and love him more. The more I love him, the more he starts to take advantage of me. Is this how relationship suppose to be?

This has nothing to do with the word.. LOVE. Ain't it abuse? Waiitt..life-controlling? Whatever it is... He doesn't give me freedom. None at all.. Maybe a little but really limited. He controls me, my life, whatever I do and wherever I go. He controls me like nobody business. He even thinks I have another guy before him which that will never happen. He always doubt me? Why? He does not trust me. I hate all these !! And I do not want to have another guy because I don't the time to play around. Having one already makes me so busy. Having two then makes me even more busy?!?! What for ? I also don't benefit anything. Yea I do.. The guys love.. -______-"

He told me before that he will never leave me and also love me forever. Well, the word `forever' is FAKE. I hate that word since like..i don't know. It just does not last forever. Okay? I'm telling the truth and what I had observe.. At least if he or she says `I love you'.. for now is slightly better than forever. Am I right? Nothing lasts forever.

Sighhhh .. I was so hurt at that moment and it was the most painful feeling in my life. Can say so...

Endless Love ...

It's like 3.51am right now... I just finished chatting on MSN with Seng Kai and Shao Wen. We chat for a really long time. We talked about many things that are happening lately. About me, them and apparently everybody. It's time for bed now.. Really very very tired.

Anyway, I got back some results again which is altogether ..

Science - A
BM - B
English - B ( I expected for an A .. -____-" )
Seni - B
Maths - A
Geo - B
Moral - A

That's all first I think .. Thank GOD I don't have any C so far. I hope I don't. So well, basically we did not do anything in school. Like everyday is already a HOLIDAY for us. If we don't go to school is also okay. So what I said about the Lim Goh Tong news eventually came out in the newspapers headline. Of course lahh, his an rich arse.. Definetely will be published on newspapers.

And and I expected for an A for my English. I did quite bad for my objective. Teacher say that my subjective was okay okay indeed. I feel so disappointed of the results. Moral was GREAT. I expected that subject for really high marks. I got 87 % for it.

I played Maple Story after I came back from school. I level-ed up again. Played Maple Story with Choey Yee after midnight for about an hour and she got to go and so something else.

Alright, I will continue more the next post. Right now, I'm off to bed and also I have nothing much to share or talk about. Seems like every topic is discussed among everone ! Taaaaaa <3 I MISS him so so much ! :]

Just Leave Me, I Will Still Run Back To You

Alot of things happening lately..exams are just over.

One of the bad news happened was Lim Goh Tong.. the founder of Genting Highlands passed away peacefully this morning at (11am, 23 October 2007).. And I told Hong Ling about this..what freaks me out was she said : ` I thought his already dead long time ago ? ' I was like : ` No lahhhh '... -.-" Well, the news will be published in the newspaper tomorrow morning for sure. =] Omggg.. I sound like some reporter only. x] I still love my old nickname since Standard 5.. (wartawan di ombak). ^^ .. It's quite LAME though.

Well, apparently I got back a few results for my exams today. It's okay larr I guess...Hmmm..so far.

Maths - A
Moral - A
Science - A
BM - B

At least I'm happy with the marks.. I need to go out! I can't wait for my parents to come back. I'm so going to shop like mad. I need clothes, accessories, make-ups (what for xD), pants, shorts..whatever I can think of. I might be going ou with friends this Sunday. And Saturday as usual..going to Sunway Pyramid. Next week, I hope I can ponteng school. =] . Maybe I will, my mum don't really care anyways.

And Choey Yee..you owe me a phone call. I can't talk to you today.. Sadllyyy cuz your sister is sleeping with you. Oh well, I talked to Yuanzhen almost the whole night. Seriously, we chat about many things that happened. It was sadden-ing and unbelievable.. I can't wait for the second week of next month. That is a truly GREAT day. Some people understands what I meant.

Message to love birds :) =
Lastly, if you never want to lose a guy that you really love for now..treasure them. Why I say so? Because I have gone through this situation before last year. It really sucks losing a guy you love or dumping a guy that you love but you cannot stand his attitude or something. And it even more suck if you get dumped because we, ourselves lose reputation and it's a bad thing. If any guy or girl don't care about you..please do something..don't just waste your own precious time for something that will just hurt you. And never fall in love with a guy that never treasures you as well. It's just useless. Cuz loving someone is nothing, to be loved is something and to be loved by the one you really love is EVERYTHING. Remember that. (:

I sound like a dad or mom lecturing. x) Ahhhhhhh, anyways.. happy reading! =D

Friendship Can Never End .. Is That Even True ?

First of all, Happy Birthday Koh Hsien Ying ! Your finally 14 years old. =]

Today stayed at home lahh.. As usual.. =.=". I can't wait to go Sunway Pyramid tomorrow. At least, I don't need to rot at home like the past few days. I passed my time by studying, reading books and playing online games like Audition and Maple Story.

Cousins went home today after two nights..before that, we were having lots of fun. Suppose to go out with Yuanzhen today, but the plan did not turn out good. We ended up studying at home. =D I need to talk to Choey Yee! She brighten my day lar. Can say so.. One night, we talked till 3am.. It was a good conversation but I was falling asleep xD

So, anyone out there still going to take exams after the Raya week holiday. I wish you all the best and study hard from now. Don't wait till the last minute. As one said.. `Time and tide waits for no man.'

Pictures Of Last Week

Serene and I



















Serene, Brenda, Jane



















Yep, that's me indeed














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