Never Say That You WIll Love Me Forever

What does my title actually meant?

Well, i'll say a short story about it.. I was once loving someone alot as he was my so called `first love'. I treasure him so much and I obeyed him, appreciate him and all the craps la. I never thought that we would ended up so fast. I was actually trying to reach about a year and it lasted for like 3 months?!?! As times goes by, I get to know him better. As I get to know him better.. I know how to treasure and love him more. The more I love him, the more he starts to take advantage of me. Is this how relationship suppose to be?

This has nothing to do with the word.. LOVE. Ain't it abuse? Waiitt..life-controlling? Whatever it is... He doesn't give me freedom. None at all.. Maybe a little but really limited. He controls me, my life, whatever I do and wherever I go. He controls me like nobody business. He even thinks I have another guy before him which that will never happen. He always doubt me? Why? He does not trust me. I hate all these !! And I do not want to have another guy because I don't the time to play around. Having one already makes me so busy. Having two then makes me even more busy?!?! What for ? I also don't benefit anything. Yea I do.. The guys love.. -______-"

He told me before that he will never leave me and also love me forever. Well, the word `forever' is FAKE. I hate that word since like..i don't know. It just does not last forever. Okay? I'm telling the truth and what I had observe.. At least if he or she says `I love you'.. for now is slightly better than forever. Am I right? Nothing lasts forever.

Sighhhh .. I was so hurt at that moment and it was the most painful feeling in my life. Can say so...

Endless Love ...

It's like 3.51am right now... I just finished chatting on MSN with Seng Kai and Shao Wen. We chat for a really long time. We talked about many things that are happening lately. About me, them and apparently everybody. It's time for bed now.. Really very very tired.

Anyway, I got back some results again which is altogether ..

Science - A
BM - B
English - B ( I expected for an A .. -____-" )
Seni - B
Maths - A
Geo - B
Moral - A

That's all first I think .. Thank GOD I don't have any C so far. I hope I don't. So well, basically we did not do anything in school. Like everyday is already a HOLIDAY for us. If we don't go to school is also okay. So what I said about the Lim Goh Tong news eventually came out in the newspapers headline. Of course lahh, his an rich arse.. Definetely will be published on newspapers.

And and I expected for an A for my English. I did quite bad for my objective. Teacher say that my subjective was okay okay indeed. I feel so disappointed of the results. Moral was GREAT. I expected that subject for really high marks. I got 87 % for it.

I played Maple Story after I came back from school. I level-ed up again. Played Maple Story with Choey Yee after midnight for about an hour and she got to go and so something else.

Alright, I will continue more the next post. Right now, I'm off to bed and also I have nothing much to share or talk about. Seems like every topic is discussed among everone ! Taaaaaa <3 I MISS him so so much ! :]

Just Leave Me, I Will Still Run Back To You

Alot of things happening lately..exams are just over.

One of the bad news happened was Lim Goh Tong.. the founder of Genting Highlands passed away peacefully this morning at (11am, 23 October 2007).. And I told Hong Ling about this..what freaks me out was she said : ` I thought his already dead long time ago ? ' I was like : ` No lahhhh '... -.-" Well, the news will be published in the newspaper tomorrow morning for sure. =] Omggg.. I sound like some reporter only. x] I still love my old nickname since Standard 5.. (wartawan di ombak). ^^ .. It's quite LAME though.

Well, apparently I got back a few results for my exams today. It's okay larr I guess...Hmmm..so far.

Maths - A
Moral - A
Science - A
BM - B

At least I'm happy with the marks.. I need to go out! I can't wait for my parents to come back. I'm so going to shop like mad. I need clothes, accessories, make-ups (what for xD), pants, shorts..whatever I can think of. I might be going ou with friends this Sunday. And Saturday as usual..going to Sunway Pyramid. Next week, I hope I can ponteng school. =] . Maybe I will, my mum don't really care anyways.

And Choey Yee..you owe me a phone call. I can't talk to you today.. Sadllyyy cuz your sister is sleeping with you. Oh well, I talked to Yuanzhen almost the whole night. Seriously, we chat about many things that happened. It was sadden-ing and unbelievable.. I can't wait for the second week of next month. That is a truly GREAT day. Some people understands what I meant.

Message to love birds :) =
Lastly, if you never want to lose a guy that you really love for now..treasure them. Why I say so? Because I have gone through this situation before last year. It really sucks losing a guy you love or dumping a guy that you love but you cannot stand his attitude or something. And it even more suck if you get dumped because we, ourselves lose reputation and it's a bad thing. If any guy or girl don't care about you..please do something..don't just waste your own precious time for something that will just hurt you. And never fall in love with a guy that never treasures you as well. It's just useless. Cuz loving someone is nothing, to be loved is something and to be loved by the one you really love is EVERYTHING. Remember that. (:

I sound like a dad or mom lecturing. x) Ahhhhhhh, anyways.. happy reading! =D

Friendship Can Never End .. Is That Even True ?

First of all, Happy Birthday Koh Hsien Ying ! Your finally 14 years old. =]

Today stayed at home lahh.. As usual.. =.=". I can't wait to go Sunway Pyramid tomorrow. At least, I don't need to rot at home like the past few days. I passed my time by studying, reading books and playing online games like Audition and Maple Story.

Cousins went home today after two nights..before that, we were having lots of fun. Suppose to go out with Yuanzhen today, but the plan did not turn out good. We ended up studying at home. =D I need to talk to Choey Yee! She brighten my day lar. Can say so.. One night, we talked till 3am.. It was a good conversation but I was falling asleep xD

So, anyone out there still going to take exams after the Raya week holiday. I wish you all the best and study hard from now. Don't wait till the last minute. As one said.. `Time and tide waits for no man.'

Pictures Of Last Week

Serene and I



















Serene, Brenda, Jane



















Yep, that's me indeed














And again

And It Just Ended Like That ..

Daddy and mummy left for China today and my maid, my bro and I stayed at home. I'm gonna miss them so much. They will be away for the whole 2 weeks. Hrmmmm, well my mother arranged activities for us already for the Raya week. So, I guess we will not be boring during the holiday week.

At least we have freedom at home by ourselves but my brother and I still got to control. We can't go like over limit. I will be studying at home for today, for the whole day. That will be boring.. Aihhhh =.=" That's it lahh for today xD Taaaaaa !

Does The Sky Ever Goes Green? I Wonder ...

Sunday ! As usual church lahhh... Went market first before going to church. Mum need to buy some pork meat. We went straight to church after that. We reached church just on time.. Well, SLIGHTLY earlier than usual. That's a good thing. I'll skipped right to the sermon. Hrmmm, some guy from America preeched today. It was okay larr. Luckily, I get to understand it.

After church, Serene, Brenda and I went to ou to do window shopping. Brenda's dad took 3 of us there and drop us somewhere at the main road. So, Brenda and I went to Mcd's for our lunch while Serene went to eat with her family. After that, Brenda and I went looking around at things while waiting for Serene to finish. After like walking around in many shops. Instead we went to play pool.

Pool was nice. I din't get to play pool for such a long time already. I hardly remember how to play it. Pffffttt. I lose to Serene for sure. She is way good at it. We took pictures too but pictures are with Serene. Just go to her blog if anyone is interested in it. I went home at 4pm. Dad picked me up at the old wing taxi station and then went home. Played Maple Story for awhile and then got ready for dinner.

Dinner at my clubhouse. Ate Japanese Food.. Yummy-ishh.. =] Loveee it ! I ate Japanese Soba today and it's delicious. After dinner, did nothing much, played computer till now. Alright then, i'm sleepy now. Nights !

When You Look At Me <3

Today was basically BORING. I describe it a totally BADDD day ! Stayed at home almost the whole day.. =.= Morning went for tuition followed by lunch and then went to my uncle's hp shop to get back my phone. My phone LCD screen broke. I bought a 1GB memory card for my phone too ;D Followed my mum to see her lawyer after picking up the phone and only reached home at 2pm.

Watch `Drive of Life'. It was so interesting mannn. Went online after that. And Maths tuition was last. It was a quite class today. Many people did not attend class today so it's a little boring. But Bryan and Yan Chee was the clown for the day.

Taaaaaa ! That's it. Day ended just like that.

Day Out With Bitches :D

Rise and shine ! Brand new day and it's like the first day of EnJoYmEnT !

Woke up at 10am and took a bath. Got ready to go ou and went to pick up Pei Shi. Before that, ate light breakfast. My mum dropped me and Pei at the new wing taxi-stand and we went to fix Pei's camera for her mum. Then, we went to Pink Pussycat and Triple Crown while waiting for the others to arrive. Then came along Yuanzhen and Hong Ling. We walked around first and then ended up in Jack's Place for lunch. =] Lunch was so delicious.. Had a bowl of Mushroom Soup, Main Course which is some Cutlet Chicken and a cup of coke. We had student meal so it's quite cheap.

We stayed in Jack's Place for a long time and cam-whored too. After that, we went walking round and round. From new wing to old wing to new wing to old wing. Then, Hong Ling and Pei Shi wanted to get a drink at `Yippee Cup' .. so they left Yuanzhen and I at WH. Yuanzhen bought a pants there and then later we headed to Radioactive and Extreme. Yuanzhen bought a top there again. Pink Pussycat and Ianti was next. We saw Shin Yen and Felicia passing by so we called them. We walked around together for quite some time. And then Billabong, Romp. I love love Romp clothes alot. Don't know why... x]

Hong Ling and Pei Shi asked us to meet them later on so yeahh we went and meet them. Headed to DIGI to buy Shin Yen's new Digi number. Hong Ling and her sister then left to somewhere which I don't know. So, Yuanzhen, Pei Shi and I went Karaokee-inggg. It was so so FUN and GREAT. The price is reasonable and very worth it. We stayed there until 6.30pm and then Pei Shi's dad came to fetch us so we got to leave. I was so disappointed that we got to leave like so soon. Time passes really fast. Basically, time fliesssss ! :]

Came back for dinner at night and then watched tv plus online-ingggg. Today was a really tiring day. Will be resting at home tomorrow. And and pictures are with Hong Ling right now. So I can't post any. Anyway, movie time with parents now! Byeeeee ! (;

Shining Bright Stars :]

Let everything in my mind just fade away =)

Waiiittttt ! Im refering to my exams. Thank GOD the exams are ending soon. Just TAHAN for freaking ONE more day. And then HOORRAAYYY ! :] I can't wait for real fun to begin. That will be like so relaxing. So I guess that I will be going shopping with my friends the whole time. Especially WONG YUANZHEN, FOO PEI SHI and TAN HONG LING. Reallll SHOPPERS... biggy money spenders. And, and...including me too ! x]

And my next activity includes my ice-skating practices and classes. I really miss it. Have not go to the ice rink for the pass 3 weeks. I'm not sure whether I still remember how to skate or do my eliments. And and I missed HIM so much! ;D Lolxx.. 3 weeks is long, I mean really really long. Can't wait to control the DJ part again too. Hehe...

My parents are leaving for China to a place called Silk Road on Monday. And basically the whole week I will be staying at home cause I have no transport out unless I call my uncle or something but I don't want to disturb other people just for me. I mean we got to respect others too right? We are not like the king or the queen of the world?? Want to do anything then it can be done immediately. I know i'm being very like LAME but i'm just saying a little FACT.. :]

Oh well, till then. Going to watch tv now. Toodles !

Cherry Blossoms

Moral and PJK exams tomorrow. Goshhh..year-end tests are just few days away and PMR tests are finishing on Friday. What a relief for them...(form 3's).

I won't be blogging any posts until next friday. Will be studying like the whole time. Good luck to everybody for the exams. =] I hope I will do good in this exams. I have nothing much to say already.

x) Jane (x